Something about karma

Hello Darling

I just want to say some things...
It was a very good experience to see u again, and I'm writing this because I mean it

I have to confess that it seems too weird for me to suddenly have news about u
and it is just because I never imagined it.

The first time you came in to my life, I was going through a loneliness period and you were
of very much support, I have to thank u for that. Also I had an strong and unreasonable feeling about u, and I never understood what happened, what did I -or us- make wrong? that the relation we began seemed not to grow up or to get higher. Once I asked myself if we both had 'suspicious minds...'
and I suppose we did. But i really don't know.

This second time I feel great but also sometimes I think that is 'cause I'm losing myself INXS because
so many of my illusions have fallen, and I don't have the courage to care about it and fight to give them a place in this world so I'm resigning to be happy with little and temporary mundane pleasures...

But... no matter what kind of period I'm going through, I can't avoid making me the question
Why do U come again? What do U want from me?
Is this a second chance to make things "right" -or less pretencious- just to do what we don't and we remind with desire...??
or is just a new following chapter where friendship will go on 'till we become grandparents ??

Is not a trascendental question as it seems, I just want to know what does people want from
me, to know if there is something I can offer them or not

I'm tire of so many things, one of them is to meet people and not knowing what they exactly expect from me, I know sometimes that is something you have to discover with the time,
but some others all you got is a kind of insatisfaction...
because no one have the courage to ask for what they want, sincerely.

I don't know, maybe there are sometimes when is better be expecting for nothing,
however the problem when you get that idea in your mind, is that you can't see the signs that appear when something good is going to happen 'cause everything seems like outlying cases.
I think that happened to me when I first met u
and so other times with other people...

Whatever will be, and you just call to have some beer and a good time
I feel very happy to pass on such unexpected moment.

Futhermore, life has given me so amazing surprises in the last days -like in the series and the movies, jaja - that I can't believe them and sometimes I'm a little sceptic, but I suppose all I have to do is to enjoy it.

I'm very glad because you still remember me like a 'friend' or you continue thinking of me like 'someone you can look for having a good time'. I hope you got what you came searching in my company.

Also I feel complety different and I think we are no longer the persons we were in the past
when we met each other, so it seems a good idea to me to get a completely new friendship, just to have fresher memories.

And just for your knowledge when I say 'you can trust me every time you need it' is because
I mean it. I like to meet people for understand and love them, this is
the way for me to show up my devotion for life.

I feel very happy when my dear ones feel confortable and confidence with the
goals they achieve according to their inner voice... so I become to believe everything is possible...
and also that life is a beauty full of magic gift.

Actually, it feel so good to see you are fine and you're moving on no matter what happens.

Whenever you like we can go out for a coffe, a beer, a movie, also a little trip will be cool.
Don't you think? I would like to travel across nearest towns on weekends like Tepoz or Puebla just to have fun and relax...

Yoguis say that there is a living god inside everyone and I like to believe it, for encouraging myself to be brave and glad every single moment. I'm pleased to think everyone -and also me- has the chance to do whatever they dream out loud.

My best

El amor es igual a la muerte

Y que en estos dos universos infinitos se cumplen los siguientes axiomas:

EL AMOR Y LA MUERTE

... SE DESEAN CUANDO NO SE TIENEN:
... SE SUPLICAN CUANDO NOS LOS NIEGAN:
... NOS PARECEN GROTESCOS EN LOS DEMAS:
... SE NOS ANTOJAN EXCEPCIONALES CUANDO SON NUESTROS:
... NOS HACEN SUPERSTICIOSOS:
... NOS HACEN COBARDES:
... SE ANSIAN EN LA DESGRACIA:
... SE ADORAN CUANDO NO SON POSIBLES; Y
... SE REHUYEN CUANDO NOS LOS OFRECEN

Jardiel Poncela, Enrique, Esparame en Siberia, vida mía!, Editora Latino Americana, 1957